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right now i feel kind of weird.. i don't want to go back to ku... but i kind of do.. i don't know.. i miss everyone from there i kind of like the classes... but to me it feels like a prison... i just want to escape.. i wish jan would give me that fucking movie already.. i mean its my friggin xmas gift and i haven't even gotten it yet! and it is really the only present i was actually looking forward to.. even though i did get some kick ass gifts.. like the purse and wallet dani gave me.. i love them so much and the sony mp3 player my dad gave me.. and all the stuff my mom got for me that had ewan on it... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...  sorry... but he is one hott motherpucker! mmmmm..... ok i;'ll stop now..hahaha... 

so yeah i guess i am sick of guys right now... they only think about sex and i don't know how they got my cell phone number... well they both were in college and shit like that so they probably could have gotten it off of facebook.. but still that sucks and is wrong...  so i have to check my phone everytime i answer it cause i don't want to talk to any of them... stupid assholes...

one thinks i love him and wants to fuck him all day every day... and the other just wants me to give him a bj...  HELLO! i am not that kind of girl... i mean i will talk to anyone... i have no problem... but i am not some kind of cyber sex kitten cause that shit just does turn me on... thank you very much... god... i hate men... and then if that doesn't seem to get annoying.. they can easily come and find me as well... they have all my info... they can easily look me up in the phonebook and wham... they are at my house.. i mean what the fuck kind of sick people do this... just cause a girl turns 18,  it doesn't mean that all she wants is sex... especially with the fat fucks that want me... lol... im sorry to say that.. i am not one to talk.. but i am just so upset that i have to say that...and i think the people like rachel and sara and sarah can back me up on this..... FUCKING FAT ASSES ...

lol... anyways i am going to gopick up rachel and hangout like no to people have hung out before going back to fucking ku!!! ahhh! i hate it there! ewwww! lol

omg i must warn people... don't talk to anyone on myspace... all they ever think, want, breathe, lust for is sex... i am sick of people coming up to me and just asking me if i want to do it. i don't. i want to be with someine i totally care about and want to be with... i am very hesitant about who i let into my "world." and only my closest friends can understand why i take those steps...

it's not like i have all that much experience under my belt... but i am only 18 and i have a whole life ahead of me.. i don't want to be like these guys who live for sex... i am in college and that is the most important thing... it is number one... my friends and family are number two... so even if i did get a guy.. they would be number three.... and i don't think any guy would put up with that...

i don't know why i am writing this anymore... i got upset and now i kind of cooled off.. so yeah................

i am just going to post this cause i know i have to write something... and what better for xanga... a venting letter that you forget about what set you off for you to vent.. haha...

night everyone

"what are you doing to her?!!"

"I will probe you with my phone!!"

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